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Sunday, August 31, 2008

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I'M A GROWN-UP girl(:

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(Card for MISS wendy)

(Saw this in school; JESUS loves YOU)

(Dear Jiahui& me)

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29/08/08
Went to school for teachers' day celebration! Sad to say, the performance was the same few years back. SAME OLD THINGY~ Aww. But my mood was OKAY~(: (For some reasons) Whaha! Anyway we made a card for MISS WENDY(our wenjie 姐姐). Hope she really likes it!

30/08/08
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY, YIMIAO!(:

31/08/08
Today I was quite vexed because of some problems. Almost cry out when I was on the way to tuition alone. Felt so helpless eh. Then after tuition, dine out at Jack's place with family for my birthday(: ADVANCE la! So, I managed to use to opportunity to ask my parents about the prob. One of it was Fahrenheit EOY concert. I have to give an answer to Huili by tomorrow. It cost 171bucks. I don't know where to go get the money in such a short time. THANK GOD, my parents didn't stop me from going, in fact they even sponsored part of it(: My parents will be paying 50bucks each. And my funny brother said that he will help me pay the remaining 1buck. As for the remaining 70bucks, I'll be paying(: CHEERS. Yesterday went Vivo city, and dad bought me a memorystick(2gigabytes)! THANKS, dad! And tomorrow will be going out to celebrate my birthday with my darlings! Hope everything goes well. About my biggest wish, I know it'll never going turn true. It's alright, I just hope tomorrow will be a happy day for SISTER kong and myself(:(:(:

The day i'm anticipating is getting near. I hope nothing goes wrong. I hope and I'll pray hard!(:

Labels: It's coming..

Thursday, August 28, 2008

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I've some quotes here to SHARE~

You can give without loving, but you cannot love without giving.— Amy Carmichael

Nothing is really ours until we share it. — C.S. Lewis

Some people think God does not like to be troubled with our constant coming and asking. The way to trouble God is not to come at all.— D.L. Moody

One thing is sure: The Lord wants us to believe most certainly that asking, seeking, and knocking cannot be in vain. Receiving an answer, finding God, and the opening of His heart and home are the certain fruits of prayer.— Andrew Murray

The only treasure anyone will have in heaven is what he lays up through his effort for God here on earth. The greatest treasures of all will be the souls we bring to Jesus Christ through the investment of our time, talent and treasure.— Bill Bright

Faith is a gift of God. Without it there would be no life. And our work, to be fruitful, and to be all for God, and to be beautiful, has to be built on faith — faith in Christ, who has said, “I was hungry, I was naked, I was sick, and I was homeless, and you ministered to me.” On these words of His, our work is based.— Mother Teresa

‘In everything give thanks.’ Never let anything push you to your wits end, because you will get worried, and worry makes you self-interested and disturbs the nourishment of the life of God. Give thanks to God that He is there, no matter what is happening... .The secret of Christian quietness is not indifference, but the knowledge that God is my Father. He loves me. I shall never think of anything He will forget, and worry becomes an impossibility. — Oswald Chambers
Our love for God is tested by whether we seek Him or His gifts.— Ralph Sockman

If we focus on our differences, our focus is on each other. If we focus with unity, our focus is on God. —Author Unknown

No matter what we pray for, whether it be temporal or spiritual things, little things or great things, gifts for ourselves or others, our prayers should resolve themselves into a quiet waiting for the Lord in order to hear what it is the Spirit desires to have us pray for at that particular time. — O. Hallesby

At that time Jesus said, “I praise you, Father, Lord of haven and earth, because you have hidden these things from the wise and learned, and revealed them to little children.” — Matthew 11:25

Love to pray. Feel often during the day the need for prayer, and take trouble to pray. Prayer enlarges the heart until it is capable of containing God’s gift of Himself. Ask and seek, and your heart will grow big enough to receive Him and keep Him as your own. — Mother Teresa

Prayer is asking for rain; faith is carrying the umbrella. — John Mason

If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him? Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.— 1 John 3:17,18

Love for God and obedience to His will is the criteria for giving.God desires to bless His children abundantly and promises to do so.— Bill Bright

If there be any truer measure of a man than by what he does, it must be by what he gives. — Robert South

Faith is a gift of God. Without it there would be no life. And our work, to be fruitful, and to be all for God, and to be beautiful, has to be built on faith — faith in Christ, who has said, “I was hungry, I was naked, I was sick, and I was homeless, and you ministered to me.” On these words of His, our work is based. — Mother Teresa

Nothing pleases satan more than to persuade people that he doesn’t exist. — R. C. Sproul

Satan does not care how many people read about prayer if he can only keep them from praying. — Paul E. Billheimer

Prayer keeps us in constant communion with God, which is the goal of our entire believing lives. Without a doubt, prayerless lives are powerless lives, and prayerful lives are powerful lives; but, believe it or not, the ultimate goal God has for us is not power but personal intimacy with Him. — Beth Moore

To have Christ the Son, and the Spirit of the Son, dwelling within us and revealing the Father makes us true, spiritual worshippers. — Andrew Murray

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I'm feeling funny or rather weird lately.

I don't know how to express it here.

Fond, Like, Love.

These are feelings which are hard to understand.

These are feelings which are hard to comprehend.

So much I wanna say, but..

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I'm learning not to be angry easily now. I keep telling myself that I musn't be angry with them. No matter what their comments about me going back to God, I must bear with it and must not flare up. ''Adeline, You must not let them affect your faith in God. Must not allow things to take control of you. The more they say, the more you MUST stand firm. Prove it to them and pray without ceasing. Pray for them, no matter what happens, the key is: ''DON'T GIVE UP." Of cos I will feel upset about their comments. I mean, they shouldn't say such things to affect me as I just turn back to God for repentance. I'm aware that these are all satan's work. I know he is using my friends to attack me, but I won't let him take control of anything! It's alright, forgive and forget is what I will do(: Perhaps this is a test from God.

It is a faith that works by love. (Gal 5:6)

God is willing to bestow on us all things that pertain to life and godliness (2Peter1:3)

''Whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you will receive them, and you will have them.'' Desire God, and you will have desire from God(:

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27/08/08
Had my Social Studies exam, it was like alright~ Haha,it seems like I always say alright after every single paper. Anyway,after that, yimiao came over to the void deck around my place to study. We chatted for sometime before studying. She shared with me alot of things which really amazed me! She shared some testimonies too. Thanks girl, I am really thankful for your encouragements. Let's pray pray pray for those whom I told you(You should know who I am refering to) Yea!(: Remember to find a time and show me the video ok!

28/08/08
Had my maths paper one and chemistry today. It sucked this time round, I surely flunk them! Enough about that, I don't know why I wasn't feeling well every morning lately. Feel like vomitting and have stomache. Really upset eh. Pray pray pray. Then after the paper, when home to prepare to meet Amanda and Shili. Supposed to meet Liza and Peiqi also but alas Liza didn't come and I don't know about Peiqi cos I left around 5plus. Sorry Amanda&Shili, hope you guys understand that my mom babysits so it's quite inconvenient eh. (:

Labels: Sick, Stress, Sucked.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

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Tomorrow will be the start of my prelims!

Labels: God bless you too.

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Now that I've turned myself away from backsliding, I've to make things clear. I won't bear any grudges against anyone including b or my ex small group leader. I mean, why should I put myself in hatred and unhappiness? Well all these should be put behind us. I wish that this time round I can really be firm when I say..''I give up on him.'' For the past one year, I've been living an 'unhealthy' lifestyle. I know I shouldn't, but I didn't care much then. I was so self-centred, I use vulgarities, I cursed, I did all sorts of things which ultimately led to sin. Now I'm turning to God for repentance. I''ll most probably be going back to church after my O's(in the mid-nov) But I won't be going back to my previous church, if you're wondering, I've my own reasons for that(=

Labels: Walking away from the troubles in my life..

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21/08/08
Stressful day for me actually. Had my science prelim practical exams and O level Oral exam. I was so nervous that I had stomache and felt like vomitting in the morning. Oh yea, I wanna thank Estee for Aaron's photo(: Really feeling unwell. In fact, I was nervous &scared of practical instead of my oral. When the clock ticked 1140, I was like..''Oh, die die'' Haha. Time for practical! I did physics first followed by chemistry. Physic was alright. As for chemistry, I stared blankly and gone case! I did the first part of the experiment only. When I saw the colous of my chemical which was totally different from others, I knew I will definitely FAIL. In the end, I sat there and watched others.Anyhow choose answers from the given notes. Then, oral was good. The topic was just meant for me!(: Smile. It was about business. Hopefully I can score well!

Saturday, August 23, 2008

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10 days left..

Labels: Counting..

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I've to thank Yimiao for giving me encouragements. And I know, it's time to let go.

Here's something I'd like to share.
The bible says:''You do not have because you do not ask.''(James4:2)
Some Christians pray only as a last resort, when everything else fails, after they've called all their friends and relatives. When no one can help them, they say,''What else can I do? All I can do now is pray.'' Prayer shouldn't be a last resort. It should be the first thing we do. As the old hymn says, ''Satan trembles when he sees the weakest saints upon thier knees.'' The devil doesn't want us to pray. He will do everything he can to keep us from praying because he is afraid of the power that can be exercised through prayers. He whispers, ''Don't pray. Try this. Try that. You are not worthy to pray. God will not hear your prayers'' He will do anything to keep us from approaching the throne of God. Prayer is a privilege that is given to the child of God. God will hear the prayer of an unbeliever who calls out to Him for forgiveness, but only a person who has put his or her faith in Christ can have a prayer life. So, pray with fervor, pray with energy, pray continually and don't give up. Because you never know what God will do.

You lust and do not have. You murder and covet and cannot obtain. You fight and war. Yet you do not have because you do not ask. James4:2

Labels: Just ask.

Friday, August 22, 2008

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It's friday again. Went to sch in a good mood. Swept the floor, arranged tables &chairs. Nothing can make me unhappy. The day in sch went well too. Just that MrNg& MissWendy was sooo shocked to see the bruises on my arm. (the marks of Liza's bites) Many curious people asked me too. I hope it gets well. Went to Cck with Sis as Liza was not feeling well. Then Irene came too. We slacked around, went to the Pasar Malam. Saw him, both of them even went forward to talk to him. Except me. I felt soo BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD.

自卑的心情,谁又能明了?
好想痛哭一场,那又何必?
矛盾的心情,该从何得到答案?
想放弃的决定,不知说了多少次.
到最后还有多少人会相信我?
曾经相爱的两个人,如今那么陌生.
此刻的心情,谁又能明白?
不明白,不服输,不甘心.
我对自己说,算了.
真的该放下,该解脱了.

''___, 我会很很很努力放开过去
我会很很很努力放弃我们一切的一切.''

I will try my very best, and hope this is my last time saying.

Labels: Gone and Done.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

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It had been so long ever since we last contact. I was aware that you had a couple of gfs after we broke up. I knew it all along, the reason why I didn't wanna rake it up &contact you is that I really don't understand why can't we be friends even though we already broke up. In fact, we agreed that we MUST still be 多过朋友但少过情人吗? Didn't we? You made those promises yet you went back on your words. I told you I used to doubt on guys. You said you won't be the same&prove me wrong. Yet, you made it even real. Yea, you proved to me that guys are the same. &You are one of a kind. You said you won't lie, but you did. You said you won't leave me but you did.You said you care&love me, but that was only for awhile. You said I won't be alone anymore, but is that true? You said WE must be a happy couple, are we one now? You said I don't have to be afraid but that was just to patronize me. You said you would always be around me, is that true? You said, You promised, You swore& made everything seemed so real. I didn't know that our relationship will reached the end that soon. I tried to fake it, I tried to give up, I tried to let go. BUT, I still couldn't. I thought we were perfectly made for each other. I don't understand if you said you love me so much then why you bear to walk right out of my life? Hey, I can never forget all the words you said, all the things we did, all the places where our memories live.I don't believe you have forgotten everything. Well, time will prove everything. Trust me when I say I love you.

Labels: this is just for HIM.

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Labels: I want you., Money

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15/08/08
Happy day for me. Nothing much happened in sch except for the interview. We got changed into our FORMAL ATTIRE after recess& everyone looked so smart& different. Esp, the guys. I supposed to be the first one to be interviewed, but I told MissChua to give me sometime. So I went after Fatin. I didn't perform well, in fact I sat there &stared blankly. I was perspiring like hell. MissChua then commented that I was okay afterall, except my skirt was too short. HAHA. What a relief, after that I went to the back of the class and started to take pictures like never before! I gotta say, my classmates are so sweet!(: After sch, we went to Yewtee for lunch in that attire. And we looked like alien(everyone was looking), BUT I like the feeling la! 不过爱美是要付出代价的! Blisters, Blisters! But I have to thank Liza for her shoes. Have to thank wenjie姐姐 for her belt(: Attended aep then. Right after that, we got ourselves prepared and headed to BBP. (Wenjie姐姐, Kenny, Peiqi) Haha. Thanks Kenny for the food(: Went to Mac after that and we saw a guy who looked like B. (Except for his lips!) *Laugh out loud*

16/08/08
Went for Olvl eng seminar at Woodlands Regional library from 10am to 5pm. It was long and tiring! Although we had to sit there so long, but it was quite benefiting, enriching(: We also had lunch at Pasta mania with MrNG.

19/08/08
Went CCK with my darlings. And saw him again(: Well, this time wasn't by fate. He didn't saw me actually as he was smoking with his friends. I can never forget the way he smoke. Although he used to smoke infront of me, I didn't really notice his expression before. So I would say that this was the first time I really notice it. 我有太多感触但说不出. Sighs.

PRACTICAL EXAM& OLVL ORAL tomorrow! ):
May God bless me. I'm really very scared. Sighs.

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