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Tuesday, June 30, 2009
{ 4:06 AM on 'I'm silly. That's me for you.' } Spoke to Dearest and Esther about some relationship issues. And I guess I can't hold onto it anymore. I should give up, perhaps(?) I hope I can, but I always can't. Maybe Dearest was right. I'm silly when it comes to the matters of heart. I don't deny. I may be silly but serious. Anything wrong with it? I don't get it. Sometimes I think that I'm being over-sensitive. I tend to think a lot, a lot. Maybe that's the reason why I am so unhappy(?) Many times,I tried. I tried to make things happen. I'd do whatever it takes and give it all. But always end up hurting myself so badly. ''I tried so hard and get so far But in the end it doesn't even mattered'' They asked me,''Why do I put in so much effort?'' They asked me,''Why am I so serious?'' I've no idea myself. This is ME for you. Well, frankly, he's not considered a bad guy. But he's not a good guy either(?) And I used to miss you so much, but it never seemed like you missed me, I guess because of that I stopped missing you. — One Tree Hill P.s I hope I'm fine tonight. Labels: I'm silly. That's me for you. { 3:35 AM on 'Exam fear~' } (Something in my heart is giving up.) Yesterday- Out to study with Dearest, darling and fifi @ Marina. Actually did a little bit of studying& after fifi went off, we were damn bored and went for movie! (Laugh) Bored and not in the study mood. (Only for dearest& me!) So we dragged darling for 'Drag me to Hell!'' She was damn reluctant can! (Laugh) Finally finally finally I can watch this! (Excited) I've waited for so long for this& almost gave up. Generally the movie was frightening! Scarying! (Lol) That stupid old woman! (Lol again) Darling was freaking scared! Dearest was like laughing at her! (Haha!) She watched it before already but still insisted on watching again! I think she wanna see how scare we can be. (Oops,sounds evil) No luh,cause' it is pretty nice movie! But sorry, I'm not scared! (Grin) In fact, I cried during one of the part. The part where the guy told his girlf that he paid $ for her& all those things he said was damn touching! Ohmy, what a nice boyf she had. After the movie,I told darling that people whom heart is not strong enough must not watch,serious. To me,a horror movie lover,must say that this is one of the most scary one I have ever came across. Despite the fact,we did not sat through the entire movie. But it's ok,we learnt the ending from dearest! Lol. Then YongLong came to look for dearest. Andddddddd! This week until the 10th will be extremely boring for me! Exams exams exams! uhhhhh! I'm looking forward to.. 11th!! Kbox session with Aaronation peeps! So long never meet up with them already! Things I hope to do after exams and during term break! Kite flying Prawning Bowling Pool(?) (Lol) Sentosa Shopping(With $$$$$) ESCAPE(Sis gave me e idea) . . (The rest, TBU)^^ P.s I'm really losing appetite-IDK WHY You may be surprised by the amount I eat lately. Cause' I'm surprised by myself too. =x Labels: Exam fear~ Sunday, June 28, 2009
{ 4:55 AM on '' } Joe& Ariel. P.s Tomorrow must watch 百万大歌星! Both of them will be there!   Aaron&Calvin Cool and Mesmerising, right?   Ghost. She likes to play around.   { 4:20 AM on '' } No Life! I've been feeling weird lately. I've been eating less lately. I don't do this deliberately. Out of no reason,I just feel that way. I feel full all day long. I've no appetite to eat anything at all. What's happening? This lyrics is specially for Dearest! 你走了太久一定很累 他错了不该你来面对 离开他就好 就算了 心情很干脆 他其实没有那么绝对 远一点你就看出真伪 离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃 转个弯你还能飞 就别再为他流泪 别再让他操控你的伤悲 就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔 也不要太狼狈 他不值得你的泪 把那遗憾留在大雨的街 你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追 以后为自己醉 段感情都非常珍贵 他的好你就放在心扉 记得有个人曾让你那样的心醉 你笑了照亮夜幕的黑 什么梦都不比你的美 多少年以后想起他还有些体会 那些你已无所谓 P/s. Have you found the RIGHT companion? Friday, June 26, 2009
{ 6:38 AM on '' } Pictures UP! 'couple' ring! hahaah! cute right!   OVERDUED-   { 6:07 AM on '' } Oh shit! Exams are coming again! Stress Stress Stress! =x Nothing seemed to get into my head! Maybe my mind is occupied by something else? Or rather, someone else(?) IDK. I really don't wanna flunk these two modules! But the contents just simply scares me off! So wordy! But I'll try my best to conquer it! I want a pass. Now, at least a pass will do. I don't dare ask for too much! Cause' Marketing and Business Management are tough! Andd I wanna say something, STUDYING IS NOT FUN AT ALL! Haha I know everyone knows that and agrees with me! What I want is.. . . . Get over with the course and Get my Dip Cert ASAP! . . . . Hunt for a stable job with a stable income. (Preferably in business industry) . . . GET MY DRIVING LICENSE! The most important thing! Hahaha! Wait wait wait! You all wait and see! Wait till I get my license, see Jonathan can still say I underage/still young to learn to drive or not! Cheh! (Laugh) Today- Went out with Dearest! Headed to town. Awhile later, YongLong and his friend joined us! I WANT SHOPPING DEH!!!!! Always end up playing Pool! =x Dearest! Next time go out SHOPPING uh! Better promise me first! (Laugh!) I play pool always 'sia suey' myself. Lol. I WANT SHOPPING!!!!! Hahaha! After Pool, we went to Heeren. Walk down and up, like crazy! Just to find something to buy for Free parking. Lol. In the end,like NO free parking uhh. =x But end up we get couple rings. I meant Dearest and me(: Damn cute! Then YongLong's friend dropped me at YCK station. Went back home and then out again for dinner with family. I shall stop here! Don't know why I keep feeling like vomiting =xxxxxxx Thursday, June 25, 2009
{ 4:14 AM on 'I tried so hard to live on my own.' }  I HATE CRAMPS! =x I know that I've been sticking with this blog for like days(?) Don't you know the reason behind? (Frowns) Here i am, another day spent at home. Supposed to go out with Dearest! But she abandoned me and left me at home today! (Sob) Haa! She went JB with my idol! Haa! Never mind, most probably still meeting her tomorrow!(: I did some revision,but i have no idea what exactly got inot my head! =x Frequent moodswings,a thing which i always had too much. On the other hand,a lot of things have been running through my head lately. I've been thinking a lot too. I've came to realise that i've lost my sense of control. It wasn't like this at all. I'm so choked by words. I can't say what i want to. I can't do things the way i want to. I'm not backing out, for now. Cause' i don't wanna leave regrets, I'd way too much regrets back then. You wouldn't understand how i feel lately. It has been from bad to worse. &Cause' even when i'm missing you, you're still not missing me. Darn,you know what?You'd messed up my thoughts, and you did nothing about it. If i were a boy,i would listen to her. Cause' i know how it hurts. I would give her time to speak Cause' i know how it feels to be missing you. Cause' you're just the boy, You don't understand how it feels. You don't listen to her& You don't care. Labels: I tried so hard to live on my own. Wednesday, June 24, 2009
{ 3:00 AM on '' }  Four hunks i love.  I love this lady very much. Overdued pictures. With Dearest.        More to be uploaded! P/s. I miss the four guys. Somehow, i really do now. Tuesday, June 23, 2009
{ 10:26 PM on 'I hate ACNE,what about you?' } I wanna be free from Acne! =x Hell! Just a few days at Malaysia, and here I am with more and more acne appearing on my face! Oh my goodness! Damn irritating can! Monday- Daddy on leave. So the six of us went to Westmall followed by IMM. Daddy bought himself a new, but 'lousy' cell. And he bought us a router for the lappy. Hope accessing the internet will be easier for me now. And I'm worried about my two dear darlings-CindyKong&IsabellaTei! They are sick lately. I hope they recover real soon!(: Tuesday- Daddy on leave. Dearest came to my place to study! She was really sick. =x We listened to yeoyeo's first lesson, like lullaby. Almost fell asleep. (Laugh!) After that, we surfed the net. She left around 3plus if I am not wrong! Lol. And for today,it'll be another day at home. Nice weather, nice day. So nice, but i'm missing dumptyyyyyyyy. (: Labels: I hate ACNE, what about you? Sunday, June 21, 2009
{ 4:41 AM on '' } Pictures!!   (Laugh) Stupid!  The wedding invitation card!   { 4:16 AM on 'Back from msia!' } Adeline's back from Malaysia! Thursday- Went Clementi for breakfast at mac with Belle. Unfortunately, both of us had stomache. (Laugh) Then kind YongLong came and drove us to school. After he went to pick up Yuewei. We reached school at around 9:30am. (Laugh) Which was an hour late. Daddy came to pick me up at the school gate and headed straight for msia. They brought the date forward. Sigh sigh sigh. I wasn't excited. In fact, I felt upset somehow. My mood wasn't right, my emotions wasn't right too. Due to some reasons,I was reluctant to leave. Left with no choice,we reached aunt place around evening. Friday- Cousins went to school so we were damn bored! During evening, we went for dinner at a relative's place. In msia, they somehow have a tradition. They would invite people over to their place the night before they get married. Andd! I saw my darling boy! I miss him so much! Out of my three lil darlings, I only managed to see Haoming. F.y.i, he is only seven! Love him la! Gambled with cousins. Saturday- Went for the wedding dinner held at Melaka. Everything was quite ok. The food, the people, the place. And the groom(which is from our side) somehow resembles Ben. (Laugh) Anyway someone spoilt my night. She is my fifth aunt.( Mummy's Bro's wife) I seriously dislike her. Not only me! My cousins also dislike her! We admit that we do badmouth about her when she is not around. We don't dislike her for no reason ok. It's the way she speaks, the way she acts, the way she treats us, her voice, her face, everything that gotta do with her just sucks. Anyway, I slept with my dearest dearest cousin!(:(: Long time never spent a night with her already! We chit-chat for hours. It's like endless topics. (Smile) Gambled with cousins. (: (I WON'T DISLIKE SOMEONE FOR NO REASON.) Sunday- Nothing much. Gambled with cousins. Ate. And left their place at around 2 plus. Once we got over with the customs checkpoints, daddy brought us for dinner at Woodlands. Then home sweet home. Awwww, I miss my bed. I miss my dearests! I miss dumpty(: These couple for days-DURIAN CRAZE! (Laugh) Ate durians everyday! Free durians. Good quality durians. But, they all make me grow fat. =x And I have been eating alot! =/ Last but not least, Happy Belated Birthday, Jonathan. Wednesday, June 17, 2009
{ 5:06 AM on 'I met a crazy women today' } Fucking pissed off. Just met a darn mad women in the bus. She was annoyed just because I crossed my leg. Fyi, not men's style ok! Is ladies style. What the fuck! She raised her voice at me for nothing! Darn it! Crazy, right? Just my luck! No one would want to meet her esp in any kid of public transport! Trust me! I seriously think that she has mental problem. I am not being sarcastic here ok. Luckily I didn't agitate her. Insane women. Tuesday, June 16, 2009
{ 5:38 AM on '' } A couple of pictures first! Movie Tickets Voodoo bought on behalf of Cousin   Exam results!  { 5:11 AM on '' } Monday- Marketing test! And was probably a gonecase, laugh! But I attempted all the questions. At least I tried, at least better than nothing! (Smile) After school, w/o any plans.. I went out again with Belle, Esther, Eunice, Jonathan& YongLong. Jonathan drove us to queenstown by YongLong's car. Went there to look for Jun Ming. Hang around the shop awhile before we headed to AMK. Yong Long took over the car. Went to buy our movie tickets first then they went for their lunch. While Esther and I went to shop around! Meanwhile, Shawn came to join us! Btw the movie we catched was ' Ghosts of Girlfriends Past'. Though I want to watch 'Drag me to hell' more! After their lunch, we were left with an hour or so before the show began. So we went for Pool. It started at 3:10pm. Actually, the movie was quite ok, I would say. It has a message/meaning behind it. It was trying to convey the message that we shouldn't wait till its too late then only we realise our mistakes. Don't wait till you regret everything when it is too late for anything to be done. The male lead has the chance to make amendments about his life and salvage his relationship. But in real life, we can't! I actually cried. But only the two who sat beside me realised it. Was kinda touched by some parts when they are talking about love. Then trained home with Belle. They all were like so excited about their exam results! Which will be sent to us through mail. So excited to open their letterboxes, except me. I can expect the outcome and I never thought I could make it through in anyway. Then when I was downstairs, my mummy shouted for me. And Jiamin passed me the letter(result). Unexpectedly, to my surprise's surprise, to my astonishment, (laugh) I scored much much much better than what I expected! Thank god! Principal of accounting& finance: Grade A Communication Skills: Grade B Shocking, right? My daddy was happy with my grades! Just as much as I do! Muahhh! Today- Reached school at 9:30am with Belle. Was late for an hour. Deliberately(?) Grins. Boring boring boring. After school, trained to CCK with Maysi &Belle. Maysi was damn funny! Brought endless laughters to us! Smiles. Belle accompanied me to Lot1 to buy some stuffs. Then she came to my place to kill time and slack, while waiting for Yong Long. P/s. Pictures taken at my place will be uploaded at a later date! P/s P/s. No school tomorrow!! (Jump for joy!) *Some people just never get beyond their stupid pride. Sunday, June 14, 2009
{ 5:37 AM on '' } Not much updates for the day. So pardon me for my ugly poses.   Over-dued pictures in class. I look shagged right?   School tomorrow again! Sucks! And test on Marketing! Oh suck. Saturday, June 13, 2009
{ 4:39 AM on 'Ok, I want to drive.' } Life's a bitch and so is the weather. (lately) While waiting for Belle at Yewtee point, I bumped into Mr Scott Chew! (Laugh) He was with his wife. He recognised me even w/o me approaching him! Must say that he has a good memory(?) Or should I say that he would remember every 'bad' student he once came across and reprimanded(?) I'm just one of the many. (Grins) He chatted with me for awhile before shopping with his wife. Till now, he still cannot control himself from teaching me to stay away from bad companies. (Shake head) Once a Discipline master, Always a Discipline Master(?) (Laugh) But I know, he meant well and he cares. Sad to say, I would never forget all those times he caught me, yelled at me and nagged at me when I was in school. Afterall, he is a scary but kind man. (Laugh) Anyway waited for Belle for 4hrs or so. Thanks Maysi for coming down to acc me. I'm like so used to be waiting for people. Lol. She cried when she saw me for not even 3 secs. My poor girl. We headed to Jurong Point to shop, along with Esther and Maysi. Our initial plan was to go ECP. Lol. It's ok, next time round. Had a great time at the mall too. To, Dear Belle. Though I may not be a good advisor for you, I'm definitely (100%) a good listener. Don't be too upset and don't fret. I hope after crying, after sometime, everything will be all right for you. Cheer up, my dear. I'm always here. ♥With love, Ade. Today, I had a long day with mummy and daddy. They decided to take public transport for the day. While my brother was out for his project. Poor boy. (Evil) We went to many places. By train, by foot, by bus. It was pretty tiring, I would say. I still prefer by car. (Grins) I want to drive! I'm yearning to drive can! Told my parents about it on the way, wanted to see how they will respond. (Smiles) To my surprise, they.. seemed prefectly fine with it! (Jump for joy) I asked them, if they dare to have a ride in the car when I have license. They immediately shook their heads and pat their chests. (Laugh!) Oh dear! I don't believe I will be that bad ok! (Grins) So I will be going for my driving license after my dip. Which is next year, 2010! (HAPPY) Back to topic, daddy bought me a new earpiece and one top. Sad to say, my earpiece spoilt two days ago. =.- And now I feel like having a new cell. Preferably, iphone(?) Can I, daddy? (Smile) I'm just so sick of my current cell. P/s. I'm currently so addicted to that damn song. xxxxxxxxx. And fuck. Test on monday! But I haven't even really start studying! Labels: I want to drive badly. Friday, June 12, 2009
{ 4:38 AM on '' } Where are my holidays? =.- I need a break. I need a miracle too. p/s. I feel like catching..'Drag me to hell'. Labels: Love(?) idk, what's that about. Thursday, June 11, 2009
{ 4:29 AM on '' } Pictures! This one is an over-dued pic. Photographer: Mr Adrian Ng  Outing with my two dearest darlings!            Her new haircut! Nice? Cute, right?  Out with the two little girls!   { 4:09 AM on 'wish me luck.' } First and foremost, Happy belated birthday to Cousin, Ng Sze Loon. Wednesday- School as usual. Sis and Liza came to my school to wait for me. Firstly, we went to Bugis for lunch. W/o any plans, Liza suggested that we go to the temple. Lol. I didn't think too much though. So we went there to 求签. I just gave it a try. (Smile) Regarding what we asked for, it is a secret between the 3 of us. So, (Shhh!) (Smiles) I don't mind sharing the result! (Grins) INTERPRETATION for my lot: [One thinks one can achieve something. Do not be troubled. Kwan Yin tells you doubt not. Heed the advice.] Well, I don't really understand it. Haha. Then, we went shopping at Bugis Street! Managed to buy our stuffs. (Glad) Strolled to Pennisular before making our way to.. Marina Square. Lol. It was our first attempt trying so many places at a time. (Nice one!) But, I swear, my leg ached. After that, Liza went off. While sis and I decided to go Yewtee for eyebrow trimming again! Because it has been quite sometime ever since we went for one. I had a long and tiring day, indeed! Thank you, my dear darlings. You made my day! Muacks! Today- School as usual. I came back with a heavy heart. =x Speechless. I shall not rake it up here. When I just got home, mom wanted to go to West Coast Plaza. Along with Jiamin and Jiahui! So, we decided to cabbed down due to the damn weather. Shopped awhile before we went back. Moodless+Speechless=Listless. (Frowns) You wouldn't understand. How I wish I could change the fact. You don't know how much I fucking hate it. Fuck, exams are coming again! and Marketing test is just on Monday! Sure to flunk this time round. Wish me luck. Labels: 给我一点时间变女人 Monday, June 8, 2009
{ 10:22 PM on '' } Lengthy post ahead (Evil grin) I reckoned that I need a thing called-Perfect Timing. I guess, I'd be much better off then. Who would want to be walking alone? Who would want to be missing someone in the middle of the night and nothing can be done? Who would want to be miserable? Who would want a unrequited love? Who doesn't yearns for a true love? Who doesn't want to love and be loved by the right one? Who else would wanna be like me? Wth fuck. But what to do? It was never, never that easy at all. I kept on reminding myself, I shouldn't be lingering on to my past relationship. I shouldn't waste time on somebody who no longer love me. Love-Puppy(?) Fuck. I shouldn't be clinging on to a past which would never gonna re-wind. I know, reminiscing at times would be perfectly fine. I know, it is perfectly all-right if I do misses the wonderful times we once had. I know, it is still ok if I had some wishful thoughts at times. I wish to, but somehow, I know.. I can't, I shouldn't. I know I seriously need a new direction and I hope I'm heading for the right one. I'm not afraid of being wrong. But I still try to be precise enough. Nobody enjoys wasting time, I suppose(?) It was never easy as I've said. I had a good look at all those circumstances and stories of my friends around me. Eventually, I came up to a conclusion. Whether it is accurate enough or not, Idk. Well cause, that doesn't matter much. What I saw was- Guys can always move on with their lifes like nothing ever happened when they just broke up two weeks ago. Guys can act as if nothing ever happened, continue to date other girls and will never spare a thought for their ex-gfs. Girls are usually the silly ones who takes donkey ears to get over and move on. Girls are always willing to do whatever things she could to retrieve/salvage their relationships. And yea, these might be just my point of views. I admit that I'm another silly one. It has been like a year to two now. Ever since my past relationship came to an end. Look at the both of us now. It was never fair, either. That's why, I need to wake up and move on. I bet I'm definitely more worthy of a better one. So, now I 'd give it all if it is all ok. Baby believe me, it's only a matter of time. 'You were a priority but was I even an option?' 你没问我 我能回应什么 用眼神说 我怕我会听错 要不要 继续互相折磨 你看我 我看著你寂寞 手已经围好城堡 心也已经备好浪潮 快完成等待完成的拥抱 别说你还没有感觉到 我所给你的微笑 不只微笑 Love you Love you Yes I love you 你听见了吗 这是我第一千遍第一万遍心里的回答 那身边的人经过的人我都不牵挂 我只去 你想要去的天涯 Love you Love you Yes I love you 你还没听见吗能不能请你放下 放下那愚蠢挣扎 我害怕爱情就像 盛开的花一错过 眼泪也没有办法 像是一场 多么令人 疲倦的游戏 只剩下最后一步 却举棋不定 我早就输了 你却不相信你会赢 看你一直苦笑叹息 我想帮忙 我好著急 爱情 爱情 真伤感情两个人 僵在这里 两颗心 悬在那里时间 时间 就快没有时间 我们 越来越像朋友而已 Another meaningful lyrics. Labels: 是不是所有快乐都非要和我无关? { 10:09 PM on '' } I'm back with a new blog skin. (Thanks to Sister!) Muacks! Monday- A little free from monday blues. Went to school as usual. Aww. No life! After school, I went home before going out again to meet my darlings! Went for a little basketball game. (Smiles) I haven't been exercising and playing basketball for ages. If you know, I hardly enjoy playing and running around in that fucking hot, humid and warm weather. It is rare to see ok. (Grins) Well after that, we went to Shili's place. Meanwhile to cool down and watched 100% Entertainment. Alan Luo is the funny man. (LAUGH) I must admit that he is one of them who never really fails to make me laugh! My darlings made my day somehow as well. Esp, Liza Tan! (Smiles) A little damper due to my condition, I'm not suitable for sports under hot sun for too long. So.. I had to put up with the damn headache for the whole night. (Frown) That was the reason why I quit playing basketball after sec2. (Damn sad case) But whatever. *Next post might be a little lengthy. Sunday, June 7, 2009
{ 8:04 AM on '' } THANK YOU CINDY KONG PEI ZHEN FOR HELPING ADELINE NEO YI MIN TO CHANGE HER BLOGSKIN. BROUGHT TO YOU BY: CINDY KONG PEI ZHEN :) Saturday, June 6, 2009
{ 4:47 AM on 'I MISS UNITY SEC SO MUCH' } Pictures for the day! Ex-Principal, lucky draw  Wifey, Liza Tan Bing Yin Unity Idol! (rock on)         CELEBRATING 10YEARS OF UNITY (Lol) Went back to Unity secondary with my girls. Actually I went back specially to support my darling! (The cute one above) Don't play play, Unity Idol ok. (Laugh) But the weather is fucking hot can! (frowns) We don't feel good at all. Met a couple of our ex-teachers. Short chat with them. I had never felt so relaxed talking to MR SCOTT CHEW before. Cause, in the past, he always had problems with my appearance. He really gave me hell. Thank god. It's all over. (grins) Now we are like friends~(LMAO) At around noon, daddy came and fetch me. We went to Katong and Parkway after that. Then home sweet home (: Labels: I MISS UNITY SEC SO MUCH |
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